I finally made the decision to go and I mailed off the check for the remainder.  Again, being honest, because that is all you ever get from me, I was uncomfortable sharing this miracle with others for many reasons. 

I was already being challenged within my Spirit?  The mere thought of such amazing goodness coming my way, through a dear friend, had me still.  My mind and heart were still.

This past June, I was contacted by my dear college roommate, she had also included four other dear college friends, to see if we could all gather and camp for a weekend.  Social media and the occasional baby shower provided quick, passerby connections over the years, but thinking of a weekend with them was beyond dreamy!

I wanted to trust completely that he was leading Ryan in this decision with his work change.  I wanted to trust in how He was carrying me along physically for a full, beautiful, and ABLE recovery.  I desire my whole flock to come to know Him intimately, and love Him really, truly, more than anything and everything.

I have so much to be thankful for.  I acknowledge, even in my/our difficulties, there are fringe gifts that many others do not have and vice versa.  I do not forget, and for this, I return praise. 

With Ryan walking away from this work, choosing to set his feet in a new direction, he now stands at a logistical crossroad in his life.  We know in our heads and hearts, a change of job is not the “answer” which will bring peace.  We do however, believe this change is part of God’s answer for Ryan, in ultimately experiencing freedom.

There are not many words Ryan has put to this long road he has been on.  He is in support of my sharing these words with you, through this letter.  I pray one day, God will give him clarity with how he can share his journey, struggles and all.

This past spring, Ryan, chose to merge his business with a virtual firm based in SC.  This was the final outcome after pursuing every other possible lead, carrying with him, each time, the hopes and prayers to ultimately close his business.  He desired to start fresh somewhere else and experience (the possibility of) less of a work burden.

I’m not sure where to start in with my story-sharing.  In many ways I wish it would be me, breathing deep, unlocking some original unblemished dreams there once were but… not this time.

It was clear in our hearts that this was a timely and perfect gift from above.  We did not want to neglect addressing logistically how moving there, could/would impact us individually, and as a flock.