The following words were written yesterday, July 24, 2020. The internet wasn’t working and God as my loving Father wanted to give me more space to be free in what it felt like to live ‘in day 40’ with just Jesus so my words ‘stayed’ with me, just like He had asked me to ‘stay’ with Him. Thank you friends for being with me, ‘staying’ with me in “this now 40.” Your words of encouragement have played a part in keeping our hearts free and able, to remain CERTAIN in this, our new and uncertain time. Continue to ‘stay’ with me as I unpack (I mean pack, lol) and share all God knows we need to be able to walk out these new days. As I continue to share here these new days I will refer to as “Day _1_ of One day…” stay tuned <3
It’s day 40 and on day 39 God knew I needed an angel food cake. Seriously friends, to be able to live free in what is always true, that of not knowing what our day or future holds, but often forgotten, is a great gift from Jesus. As His followers we get to know and believe really and truly that He is working in everything, always, down to the most minutest detail.
Last night we had planned to celebrate Audrey turning 16 by inviting some dear friends she has journeyed through much of her life with. A precious part of this celebration was it also allowed me to include the mothers of these dear ‘sisters’ of hers because these mothers are indeed ‘sisters’ to me. The night was to include me having a trifle dessert for Audrey, one made with angel food cake.
Starting bright and early I had my list of to-dos to complete, one being to bake the angel food cake and shoooot, I could not find the correct pan I needed. Ugh. Mmm… I decided to give the local bakery a call because by this time, I was already aware I was a little behind schedule in all I had hoped to accomplish. I asked if they had any available and they informed me, they do not bake angel food cakes during the week, they only have them on the weekends and here I am on a Thursday and needing it for, well... THURSDAY. Okay then, my issue, I had delayed in getting this task done, we will be fine with the other dessert I had planned. Moving on.
Jesus knew I needed to know sees me and loves me in what was my heart-weary day 39. Being so close to ‘the end’ and nothing being brought to help us know exactly how to move forward after ‘staying’ (as requested by Him) ‘til day 40, was getting at me. Can you feel me here, even in trying to explain what it was feeling like that day brings in shallow breathing and anxious energy. You ever have days like that?!? My heart-weariness was from me, I was living in my strained and suffocating natural ways not in His amazing and available supernatural ways. He knows all of me and He understands my human nature to want to know all (the how/what/when/where/why’s of ‘this now 40’ and everything else in life, haha). He also knows there is yet more freedom for me to be able to confidently live out His promise of Him being my all in all. So for the sake of smiles and a much needed heart-hug from Him my phone rang…
“Hello, this is Kara.”
“Hi, this is the Bake Shoppe, did you just call about an angel food cake?”
“Yes, I did,” I knew she could hear silly-hope in my voice.
“Well it turns out we had a customer order one, and we actually made two. Would you like the other one?”
“Absolutely, thank you so much! Jesus knew I needed this cake!”
“Wonderful, I’ll set it aside for you, so glad it worked out for us to serve you.”
“Me too!”
Jesus being our all doesn’t mean we will know it all. Duh! You’d likely agree with me but when it comes to actually living and needing to make decisions, we tend to put unique expectations on something new and extraordinary. New and extraordinary parts to our lives may come, but maybe not. Do we still believe Jesus has been, is, and will be enough. Do we have the confidence and belief in understanding we have within us all of Him not lacking or missing anything? What about when He makes something so clear and we are able to shout it off the rooftops but presently there is no tangible part lining up with it. Are we going to let ourselves remain in Him and with His peace move forward believing we lack nothing!?!
I know to say yes, I know to know yes, and I know to wait in this yes. Throughout “this now 40” He has very specifically reminded me of times in our past when He absolutely, positively, lit the path of only ONE BRICK, just enough for us to stand on, but stand we could. It wasn’t until months or years later when we were invited to step further on that particular path. In the meantime, on this day 39 He lifted my eyes and lightened my heart by giving me and our Audrey an angel food cake.
As I write this it’s day 40. He has let us know, that we know — He is, who He says He is — and His all is in us and for us so... for this day and all our tomorrows may we remember we. are. able! to take one step forward always celebrating because we most certainly still, and forever will have Him and an abundance of angel food cake!
His angel food cake for us <3
Our Audrey <3