These thoughts were penned in March of 2017 in response to having been provided with a much needed and unsolicited gift in a very hard-pressed time. This gift was meant for and indeed was used to continue developing confidence in Him — my God. At the same time it offered great opportunity for me to practice letting go of ‘ought confidence’* in myself and my ways. Living out this gift of faith and placing my complete and utter all before Jesus has proven to be worth life [period]. May we let God further grow us as His children, and let’s all radiate His goodness and freedom in, and because of, Jesus.
*my way of expressing cultural and yes Christian cultural confidence in A + B leads to C or in other words I + ME = Awesome for ME, just sayin’
March 2017
This week (really the last mmm…9 years) has been full of my head and heart ping-ponging... back-and-forth…faith / fool, fool / faith, faithfulness / foolishness, foolishness / faithfulness…
Yet at each pause, His Spirit continues to boldly say to me… faith, Faithful, FAITHFULNESS!
In the confident reminder from Him to me,
that He has always been faithful to me and mine,
I have learned on this narrow road to be,
and yes, I have been and may continue to be… “looking as a fool.”
The truth is, this life, my life, the days of treading soil,
have been full of feeling the blows of the hammer to self.
But, Selah...
These blows have brought forth my feeling of the
softest and strongest hands of my God and Savior.
THERE.
He is there. With me. Beside me. Before me. Behind me.
He is smoothing out all the craters left behind from the blows.
He is perfectly forming a vessel of me which can...
collect, remember, and share
the TRUTH of His never leaving, nor forsaking his Beloved and
the PROMISE of His working for those who wait in and upon Him.
Lord may we embrace the blows because LIFE is in the felt gift of Your being… in, with, before, beside and behind us <3